What is love? Thats a question i've been hearing alot lately; from myself & others. i don't think i've told you guys about jason. but he was a guy i was talking to for awhile. probably almost a month like 3 weeks. half way through the...relationship?...if thats what you wanna call it; he asked me; "would you be mad if i got back with my ex?"; should've tipped me off to get rid of the guy. but my mom believes in second chances god forbid. haha; well we talked again; and then we finally met.
The same night we meet; later on in the evening; i'm online, talking to what i assume to be him; and come to find out it wasn't; it was his fiancee. Yes! You saw that right FIANCEE. the stupid mother fxcker. =[ he had someone the whole time; and his excuse...his excuse was; "oh i thought it was over"; you know what stfu. its done. haha. & then i stayed over aprils. and we had a grand old time. looking through pictures and stuff. talking late into the night; creating more insiders; find out true feelings; bringing back memories. i felt like i was really getting to know her. and then we fell asleep; her before me; while i played millionaire on my phone.
speniding alot of time with cheryl lately; well last night. i'm extremely tired today; i have no idea why. hmm. oh well. i need to get some more lj friends. i hardly ever get comments. i suppose its not about the comments; but i like advice. oh well. *shrugs*. oh and me & other friends are horrible. all my other friends cept april SUCK!. Kay.
Well i think i've written enough =D. Kay.
buh bye.

Ohhh wait. Last night! i cried =[. i missed my dad. i miss my dad. alot. and i think i'm going to write him a letter thanks to april =D.
kay.
now.
BYE!

What Amanda Means

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

the only thing i think is true is the imagination, and the jealousy thing. and maybe the paranoia. i hear that i like worry to much so hmm. anything else u have to agree with april?
becuz i know shes like the only person who might comment this.

Okay. Well on Thursday I got into a car accident. And it was pretty bad. My air bags came out and everything. i was stupid and wasnt wearing a seatbelt. the one time. >.< so what happened was i was going thru a green late going straight, when this stupid chinese lady[no offence], went thru a red turn light. i blacked out, i dont even remember what happened i don't even remember her heading towards me. it was scary. my car is totaled, the lady got sitated. she got a ticket.
right now im watching dreamer with my mother. i have been to work. and tomorrow i have to call my dr. my head and chest hurt really badly. but i think i'm going to live. lmao. obviously im living. i went to the hospital in a ambulance thats never happened before. its crazy. i was in this ugly neck brace, and it hurt. i felt nasaueted and everything.
we're opening present early hear. my mom got me a car radio, what good that is. lol. i have to get a new car, and i might get a settlement. we're suing her seeing it was her fault. i hate being out of work it makes me so angry. i have nothing to do during the days anymore.
*sigh* well im off. comment if you wish.


<3,
Amanda

Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! Last Friday I invaded Iraq, broke it, and couldn't glue it back together before Mom got home (-1012 points). Last Tuesday I stole dragonfliiesx's purse (-30 points). Last month I got in line at the supermarket at the same time as someone else and I didn't yield (-8 points). Last Saturday I turned hello_dickbag in for spitting (3 points). In September I gave kiddam a kidney (1000 points). Overall, I've been naughty (-47 points). For Christmas I deserve a spanking! Sincerely, missmandymack

Write your letter to Santa! Enter your LJ username:

I wish life was as easy as tv makes it out to be. I've stopped being friends with two of my friends from 8 years. And usually it was either one or the other. Maybe they both were looking for an excuse to stop talking to me for awhile. but both at the same time. damn. atleast i still have april, and trish. and i'm working all the time also, and i have made a few friends so its all good. i suppose. my aunt did my hair today. it looks pretty. and she found a gray hair *gasps* why would something like that happen to me. EW! lol. 

i need to start typing up my christmas present list. so that way i can know what i'm buying everyone. i don't have many people anymore. but tis all good, because that means less money i have to spend. except now i have a discount thing, and i have no one to use it on. but i suppose its okay. =]. i miss my dad. and i always seem to around the holidays. not so much thanksgiving but christmas. and it seems like i miss him more and more each year, and thinks keep getting worse. i suppose they have to get worse before they get better eh. 

Well i think thats all i'm going to write for now.

ttyl,
amanda



 oh and p.s.! i got my settlement, its gone, and i have a car =]

So... I hung out with April today!! Sooo exciting! lol. and I poked myself in the eye. lmao. we walked around the block, and we both vented. i'm pretty happy. i have a job. and i'm seein someone. =]. though i dont get to see them in person i still am excited. i'm sooo bored. i need gas money. oh and i work at the walmart in chicopee so come and see me.
hmm. short but sweet. me and my mom have been getting along lately which is a plus. and my uncle and I have been gettin along very well. i'm gettin my settlement soon. so thats good. meaning i'm guna get my car soon. =].
So yeah thats about it <3

hey.
yeah i have no life. but i really do lmao. so i'm bored. and i havent been gettin the car much so i havent been hangin with people as much. But eh... i'll live. i don't feel good. I'm watching Dr. Phil. He's fricken awesome. Lol. But yeahhh he's cool. he has people who are like opposites. i have to pee. but yeah just wanted to update and say wuts up. you should look for me on myspace...daddiespunkie@aol.com.
Kk well peace!

heyyy. yepp hanging out with te baby. and listening to one of our many songs!!! lol. hung out with april today, and bought her the book 'secrets in the attic'. i got into a fight with my mom again. sounds funn right!!! not really I cried, like i havent cried in forever and i cried. i hate that fact that my mom has that power over me. but i guess it happens. im bored. hmmph. i've been hanging out with a lot of people lately and i love it, i feel alot of freedom, and i feel the need for money, i need a job!!!
so i might have to start calling people like walmart, and everything. hmm, i think i might do that tomorrow. i dont know if tianna and me are hangin out, if not ill just stay home and call people. i dont remember everywhere i've applied tooo hmmm...but yeahhh. i might make a list now. i wish sears would call me. i hope my mom isnt like ignoring the calls because then i might have to smack her. hmmm
well i think im guna go to sleep.
night.

haha. i'm a doofus. becuz i just realized they are under every entry. [the radios] click the arrow to play it. =].  s0o0o0oo i'm hangin out with april if i get my check tomorrow. and i'm gettin tick meds for snowball. a treat for my dog, letting my mom borrow money[again]. then going to dollar tree and buying lollipops for other people [ and i plan on gettin me some, something.] since i just put myself on a diet today. I want people to enter my contest best pic with a lollipop on myspace =]. im bored. lol. im talkin to april, and listenin & downloading music. hmmm i saw adam tonight, i miss him sooo much. i will marry that boy, well not really but it'll be a best friends marriage like me and april. =] yep shes the husband n im the wife. oh and sixx is preggo yay for sixx. i'm in a pretty good mood lately, except i want a baby, anyone wanna make me pregnant. =] newho. I can't wait til halloween. I'm being a cheerleader. and i have to buy my own outfit, but i have next weeks check for that. and ummmmmmmm... i'll def have pics put up. oh and i got my batteries back from my trishy pooh! im bored. *sighs* well i think i've written enuff 
toodles.
amanda

At the bottom of my page their is a radio. So you can click on the radio thing. And stuff and yahhh.
so0o0o0o0o0o listen to it. yahhh... but no more...

becuz like i said there are people here